Living a life where the Word of God is alive
I’m Mei, a Singaporean who became a Christian in Shanghai in 2003.
I have an introverted and thinking personality, and set high expectations for myself. Including when it comes to the bible. However, within the first year of becoming a Christian, I already knew that I was not living a life where the bible is alive. These questions deeply bothered me in the first 15 years of faith.
Why can’t I hear God? What does it mean when people say the bible is a living word? What does walking with God even mean? Am I living as a Christian if I don’t feel, hear or think differently from before?
And when I read Isaiah 64:8, I immediately thought to myself, Gosh, I am the Clueless Clay, and that’s when the name Clueless had stuck with me ever since.
Yet you, Lord, are our Father.Isaiah 64:8 (NIV)
We are the clay, you are the potter;
we are all the work of your hand
I stayed clueless throughout the first 15 years of my faith. And it was not because I was lazy or didn’t pick up my bible to read. On the contrary, I attended bible study even before I decided to be a Christian and thereafter, had led bible study groups and read the bible cover to cover at least 5 times.
The Year when the bible came alive
I got a journaling bible in end 2018 and started to make notes on my new bible, select a verse from whatever chapter I was reading on Saturday and memorized it. I also take that same bible verse and journaled my verse-mapping notes.
The changes came in 2019 when the most obscure verse was spot on for what I needed during the week. We are talking about verse that said wash your face (Genesis 43:31) when I needed to calm down after quarreling with my spouse or why stay with sheep (Judges 5: 16) which prompted me to go over to my mom’s and found that my dad had fallen off the bed.
By the end of 2020, I was no longer clueless but confident that the bible is a living Word and that God knows me.
Friends: Nothing beats the joy of knowing that your Father in heaven knows. And that’s why I poured so much love into this, because I don’t want you to go through 15 years without someone sharing this with you.